.... Did 2 the gryphon say in one of his rants. He sayed it in a ironic way I think. I quote him, because I have rigth now this words in my mind.
Isn't live wonderful? The Irconicly dragon asnwers it with yes.
So what happened? Umm let say I finished lap 2 of the love circle. I ended up onces more where I started. Gained more experinces but with hands full of void.
My second matship ended today. Less painful, and less drama as the first one. But still kinda dissapointing for the love zone of my heart. I'm not sure what I do wrong yet, migth be that I'm a kind of mysterious monster? Maybe, so, because it was for a second time not me that asked for taking it off...
Well I'm not a monster in my heart I hope, so I accepted to emotional smack back to where I started. I know that it can not work out when the parthner feel wrong with it. And I'm not up for more dramas, there already enogth for finding a job...
I'm for me not sure what I should do now. Giving for the momment the seek mate and get happy game up, or should I try a 3rd round on it. Beeing alone sucks but you get not dissapointed. Finding a mate sucks kinda too, I often come to people that are already mated (YAY). Ahh well Maybe I have to relax a day or two to figure up whats to do next.
The only thing I can focus on is a last Job Interview for this year for a application. Luck alone will not work out to get that one. but I keep trying. And earlier or latter I probally will try to get a mate number 3 too, hopefully one for a bit longer time as 1 month and 2 days.
The only thing I'm glad about the 2nd failing is that it do not rip my heart in parts and pinces like it happend the first time....
I guess the gol scalie is a unlucky dragon. Hopefully not born in unluck.
To end this news, that had to get out my mind, I want to send special thanks to V'Shjaar and Daniel Kay as well as ALL my other friends that I did not list here,for supporting me in good and bad days, giving good adives and most impsorent to show mw that there is still a tomorrow also when todays clouds are black like tar.
best regards
Reilsss, how don't know rigth now....